This could be a love song
Only difference is
There is nothing to love anymore
But maybe I just pretend

And I pretend

I'm a lone heartbreaker in this world of gloom 
There is no more rainbow even if it is monsoon 
I look away from you 
And there is nothing to see
Must be the night is so frail or is it just me ! 
I'm not a friend I'm no more a lover
I don't know who I am but I try to be sober
I have some nightmares yet they look so real
Of blood drips I don't know what is left to kill
And I pretend I'm just another story gone off the pages
Carrying this dead burden it feels like ages
Dying a thought which keeps coming back at me
I might have a heart but I pretend it is empty

And I pretend

I'm a vaccum sucking the love off those eyes
Looking for madness but everything is behind disguise
Like blind cherubs with arrows aiming my skin
There is a frozen door I've that is buried within
A torment of life pulling me to my knees
Broken and numb I feel no words to decribe what I miss
I stay awake late night writing my sordid tales
Throwing dust on my grave hearing the cemetary bells
It's a fake life a fake soul a fake smile to begin
So I pretend that I could be a lover again