You .. and noone else
"we were meant to live for so much more
That we lost ourself
But somewhere we live inside"
.................Switchfoot ... Meant To Live
Introspection comes to us when we've virtually nothing else to do... In some moments of your own .. when you're just like what I'm into ... standing or sitting with a cuppa coffee .. and looking out .. faraway .. out yer window .. or the door .. or the goddamn balcony .. or to the horizon .. without expecting what to look or what to see .. you just stare at the great divide .. the blurred line between the ske and the earth ... and you sink deep down inside yourself .. you sink .. in your thoughts ...
It's just some matter of moments when you could actually see what you feel like ... Other times we are all just so much infatuated with our pleasures and pains.. loses and gainjs .. it's hard to be oneself when you've so many faces to cater to .. so many thoughts to realize .. so many hunger to contain ... so many ... but so few... wish I could've some more time .. time .. time .. more time .. more wishes .. more dreams .. more .. everything more .. more and more ... and nothing less...
Less is the word no one wishes to muster up ... just like the abandoned thoughts .. infact no thoughts are abandoned .. you send them to some part where you don't tread for a long time .. to a part of you you don't want to see .. you don't want anybode else to see ... Like so many masks you've.. so many masks I do 've ...
care to remember that rhyme when you're an infacnt !!
Ba-ba Black Sheep .. Have you any wool ... Yessir Yessir 3 godamn bags full .. One for my Good times .. One for the worst .. One for the times I'm happy ... One for the times when nothing goes right .. so many baggages .. Yet nothing to carry ...
Some things we wish to leave behind... leave behind where??? Is this a journey on a highway !! On our highway !! where we may find a stop sign .. a U-turn .. a zig-zag ... road signs .. Upon which we just move along ... but how many of us really can move along !!
There's plenty of time when you can give yourself the time to go philosophical... those are the times when you're not by yourself .. you've no boundary .. you're not stuck somewhere .. you're not a part of the rush hour ..
There's a terrible rush ... speed .. fast track vision of fast food nation.. you run or you don't ..
We think almost all the time we are awake .. maybe we are still thinking when we are sleeping ruthlessly against the wall ... and what are we thinking?? How many times we are really thinking about what we ought to think ???
And what you should??
And what we shouldn't??
Truth is never a one-sided affair .. there's always two or more sides to it .. Truth is relative .. it's a two-dimensional or a multi-one figure .. a graphic where the end is the beginning is the end ... where there are strangers smiling at you and your closer ones moving away .. and it gets blurred in a couple of moments .. and then it's all over .. there's only a white vertical line across your red horizontal mindframe .. it's a picture no surrealist cares to draw .. coz it's there .. too common .. too mundane .. and too disturbing ...
Even though you knbow what it means .. or you don't ... but it's everywhere .. along with the white noise .. deafening sound .. but you hold on to it just to outdo every other sound you don't wanna hear..
Our perspectives change with time.. ain't it !! always changing dreams in always changing world !! Where a capitalist turns out as a socialist.. where love turns hate .. hate turns love .. peace changes to war ... war changes to rebellion .. life chanmges into a static .. and a static changes into life ...
and we are all just mere performers ... some of our performers really suck .. even the script too !!! but it';s multi-budgeted screenplay boy .. and you don't get any award for writing it .. coz the book of life was written by someone who was not acquainted with you !!
And they change the meaning each time you get yer hands on the terms .. the writings on the wall .. but nobody sees it ... coz we all pretend it's for someone else .. that someone being us .. we are all different then everyone .. we all wanna be .. but in the end .. we are just the same .. both you and me .. with different faces ..
The crouching tiger, Hidden dragon is always there inside all of us .. only a few of us can unleash it ..
The dreams that we relish to .. are a bug for a few .. or a huge turkey for a few .. size doesn't matter baby .. not in the dreamland .. as long as u r dreaming .. the size doesn't bother anyone ...
There's always a searching for a room of one .. where we r on our own ... not for anyone else .. Not for you .. not for somebody .. but for me ... only me .. That room is hard to find ..
Ain;t it what they call Nirvana !! completely in sync with our innerself !!
Nirvana is the state of mind where you are just yourself .. not the man you wanna be .. not the man someone else wants you to be ..
No games .. No rules .. Simply you ..
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